Today I didn't feel very courageous. In fact, for the past couple of days I've felt like I have a burden that I can't carry. Recently my mom's cancer meds stopped working so this weekend she had to travel to a doctor in Oregon to ask about new medicine. She came back and her cancer has been causing her pain. She can barely talk or lift her arms without pain. So throughout school I've been thinking "woe is me". I've got so much homework, too little time, no sleep, my mom is sick... Courage (I believe this is brought up) is putting others before yourself. I definitely wasn't doing that. So, I decided to try something else. I didn't just ignore my problems, but I focused on praying for the problems of others. It helped... a lot.
So tonight I did devotions w/ my parents and I asked if we could play some praise and worship with my guitar. We sang "How Great is Our God" and my mom started crying. She shared with my dad and I her prayer journal of how she was dealing with the exact same thing I was. She dealed with her chip on her shoulder I believe in a more courageous way than I did. She praised God. She praised him for the good, the bad... everything. It blew me away. So now here is what I think. Courage when you have a burden takes something that many don't realize. The ability of surrender. To realize that our burden is heavy but Jesus' yolk is light and giving up our burdens. For he is a great God and he can take it on. It is not up to us to carry our burden... but to throw off that burden that hinders us in the race and keep our eyes on the prize... Christ.
This song is truly amazing:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud0kaWLHEd4
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