A Confident Fingerprint

So this past week after New Years has been quite interesting. The Freshman Break-Out occured and this weekend has been non-stop busy. The Freshman Break-Out went well and it made me think a lot about who I was. To myself (and maybe in the eyes of others) I see myself as a person who becomes obsessed w/ something. For this week it was the break-out and those at the break-out might've seen that I'm passionate about doing big things through the young generation. It made me think of the kind of man God wanted me to be.



So the day after the Break-Out I had soccer fitness training. Now I haven't been training... and most definitely was not ready for running. We ran stadium stairs like the ones in the picture. We hopped up them, ran them, jogged them, did step-ups on them... and suffered on them. As I was running I thought a lot about how they are like life. Running up them is like the struggles in life... You feel tired... and wonder if you can still go on. I felt like this after the Break-out, I was drained of energy... and didn't know how I could keep up my passion. And then there's running down the stairs... the time where you feel God is right there w/ you and life is easy. I felt like that during the Break-out. Then there's those flat parts between stairs where you start to feel dry-mouthed and wonder if the run is really worth it. When God is silent. I wonder... Is it really worth it?

It is... there is no doubt in my mind. For the difference between Christians and non-believers is that there is a goal in the end. The prize that we must run after. What good is running this race of life if we run after nothing. And it is for that motivation that we keep running.

But as I run... I started wondering this weekend if I fully understand that calling... that prize. On Sunday a guy asked me this: "When you leave this world, will people remember that God did something through you... will you leave your fingerprint?" It got me thinking about being a true man of God... a man who was not confident in who he is, but in who God is. And that confidence is what should show through me. That is the confidence of what a man after God's heart should be. But is that who I am?

I come across to a lot of people as confident... starting freshmen in varsity... lion award in middle school... class prez... but who I am is actually nothing. I am who I am because of who God is. So maybe that is the confidence I should look for.

And it is w/ that confidence that I run toward the prize of leaving my fingerprint on this earth. A fingerprint seen through a life of touching other's lives. For in the big perspective of things... It is not more important that I make it up the stairs... but that w/ all my being I carry myself and everyone I can up the stairs w/ the passion and strength God has given me. "So that his light may shine through you that men might see your good deeds and praise your father in heaven." (Matt. 5) A true man is confident in God... A true man can truly run...