Just Do It

I haven't updated in awhile... and I've been thinking a lot of what to put down... and I really didn't come up w/ something real concrete.

One thing I knew I would talk about was identity. It's been on my mind a lot lately... who am I? why am I here? There's a nike slogan that shows the best of the best doing what they do. What they're made to do. Am I doing what I'm called to do?

In a blog a long time ago I talked about how God is first in my life and has sent me on a mission. Recently I think I figured out part of it. My mission is to instill some passion for God in the freshman class. I've been so psyched about it... I've dreamed about it... focused on it... and now... I feel so weird about it. In dreams things all seem to come together so perfectly... but not always in reality. You see, the freshman class has potential for passion, but doesn't necessarily use it. I started thinking if this was worth giving my life for... giving my passion for.

As I pondered that in church today I thought of a story about Ezekiel. It was how God called him to speak to dead bones. Literally, Ezekiel did it. It made me think, if this is where God calls me will I be committed to use my passion on dead bones... on unpassionate freshmen.

Heck ya, that's what God wants. He doesn't necessarily want a revolution from me... a world change. He wants my heart... that's all... he wants all of it. So if I'm called to try to inspire dead bones... well then, I'm going to lose my lungpower trying to inspire them. I will leave no regrets. I've chosen this life, and if I choose the identity of a God-follower, then God wants all of me.

In church, pastor Brian talked about Saul and how he did half of what God said until it didn't fit his desires. He totally lost his identity as king... and lost his kingdom... to a man who gave his heart to God.

It reminded me of a friend this week that learned this lesson the hard way. I know who he really is... he's a dreamer for God. But the last couple of weeks... he didn't see much in it. He saw a desire... and he chased. He totally gave up who he was and became someone else... and now... he's paying for it.

I want to be souled out for God... following that call... so that when my passion dies... I have no regrets that I used it wisely. There's a switchfoot song that says "I wanna burn out bright!". To take that path requires sacrifice and God made me realize that. I have to sacrifice my dream of glory and awesome change... cuz it's not about that. It's about following God's call... A call for me to inspire. And I'm going all in. This is who I am. This is what I do.